Bugging Out Early
I feel kind of bad posting this now, because I guess my blog has missed so many exciting and wonderful events, but I need to write it somewhere and it’s not really a Facebook or Twitter kind of thing, you know? So, disclaimer: if you want happy stuff, go the hell away and look at Facebook photos.
Basically, I’m going home almost a month earlier than planned – June 29 instead of July 20. This has forced me to upset a lot of plans and a lot of people, but you’d better believe I have my reasons, and it wasn’t a decision made lightly.
First of all, after I made plans for July to catch up with Steve in Iceland and go to the wonderful-sounding Latitude Festival (seriously, Belle and Sebastian are playing, you think it’s easy to skip that opportunity?) in England, I found out that after my student visa expires on June 30 and I’m not allowed in the Schengen Area – that is, most of Europe – for either 90 or 180 days (can’t remember which). That means no Sweden, no Iceland, no Czech, no whatever. Just the UK, Ireland, and Croatia and stuff. So, scratch one trip to Iceland.
I found out the information about my visa along with an American friend, Breanne, in the exact same situation. So what do we do? Plan a road trip around the UK, ending up at Latitude, where we would meet up with Steve and enjoy the music. I booked (and paid for most of) the hire car, we paid for flights, and even reserved some accommodation.
However, as the time got closer, I started stressing about time constraints for when I go home. Uni starts back at the very start of August, which left me with less than two weeks to get over jetlag, catch up with family and friends in Victoria, move my stuff to Sydney, find a place to live, find a job, and get ready for school. Doable? Maybe. While remaining sane? Hell no.
I guess I should admit that it started a bit before this, though. Already I could see that I had almost a month and a half of straight travelling – from June 11, when I head off with friends from my Spanish class, to my flight home on July 20. One of the things that has surprised me about myself over the last while is the discovery that I don’t actually like travelling all that much. I mean, I loved coming to Sweden, and it’s seriously one of the best things I’ve ever done in my life, but it’s hardly travelling. It’s relocating and living in a new, interesting place for 5 months. I spent a week in both Munich and Paris since I’ve been here, doing all the proper touristy things, and while both were great, with fantastic company, I was incredibly glad to be back in Sweden again afterwards, and couldn’t have survived too much more.
Oh yeah, I hate touristy things. Really, I went to Munich to see Andreas and Barbara, I went to Paris to have a nice time with Anna, and I was going to the UK because, well… Because I got kicked out of Sweden, really. Basically, I like always having somewhere to call home, and I don’t like to be away from that place for too long. 19 days at the end of June is going to be pushing it enough, and I’m really only doing it because I want to see my Spanish friends at least once during the year (they’re all over here until December / January). Although thankfully the last week or so will be just Anna and I, and Anna is kinda like home.
Then there’s the whole thing about money. Usually I’m pretty carefree about money, and I don’t like stressing about it, but the month and a half of having nowhere to go ‘home’ to was going to put a serious strain on my finances. I probably could do it, but would be going home broke or even a bit in debt, which is not nice when homeless and possibly jobless. I still have to pay for mine and Breanne’s cancelled flights (hate you British Airways), and some cancellation fees for other stuff, but overall I’ll have a lot more left over than I otherwise would.
Some of these problems might be solved if I can organise what I want and am able to do my last semester of school in Melbourne, as I can just stay at home in Ballarat until I find somewhere to live, but it’s not really something to fall back on, especially as I’m not sure I’ll be able to get permission from UTS.
Anyway, I just wanted to get that out there. It was indeed triggered by something / someone, but I’ve been meaning to write something like it for a while, even just to re-convince myself that I’m doing the right thing. Some of the flak has made me rethink, but I guess that’s how it goes, and if my reasoning comes out unscathed, then I guess I can feel better, right?
So that’s that. I’ll miss you, Sweden, although not as much as I’ll miss my darling Anna, but I’m sure I’ll be back with you both in the future.

